Shattered

I feel shattered.

I look around at all the broken pieces.

I look close.

Lies. So many lies.

I love you.

Lie.

You are beautiful. You glow! You shine.

Lies.

I have never felt this way about a woman before.

Lie.

I will never love anyone but you.

Lie.

I have told you everything. I promise.

Lies.

I will always love you.

Lie.

I will wait for you.

Lie.

I won’t hunt you down.

Lie.

I will prove wrong all those who say things against me. I will never give you a reason to fear me.

Lies.

I have never met anyone as incredible as you.

Lie.

You are the most amazing woman I have ever met.

Lie.

I will always listen to you.

Lie.

I will honor you.

Lie.

I love you.

Lie.

I have waited so long for you. I will cherish you forever.

Lie.

So  many lies. So many lovely lies.

I thought…

You were an angel of light.

Lie.

You were a monster.

I thought…

You were a beautiful sheep.

Lie.

You were a ravenous wolf.

I thought…

You were the man of my dreams.

Lie.

You were the man of my nightmares.

I thought…

I was safe with you.

Lie.

My heart was slowly being suffocated.

I thought…

I was special to you.

Lie.

I was quickly and easily replaced.

Lies. So many lovely lies.

So many.

You are the liar everyone said you were.

I was a fool for giving you a chance. I was a fool for believing in you.

I am a fool no longer.

I see you. I see clearly now.

You built a house on sand. For a while I built it with you.

The wind and waves came.

Down it fell.

Down I fell.

Great was the fall.

I may have been knocked down.

I am not desolate.

Although you made my heart race, it was never yours.

I gave my heart to my King.

His love is true.

His word is real.

He is faithful.

My heart is safe with Him.

You may have lied and lied and lied, but True Love has kept me safe from your poison.

I am cracked, I am bruised, but I am not destroyed.

My King holds my heart. He held it then, and He holds it now.

© Rachel Anne Redfield 2015

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